Charlatan or Confidant - Part II

Reliving events, that brought us to spain.
you are truly gifted my friend!

There are those people, who will say, move on with your life and forget this episode.  What I have to say to you is this;  Part of the process, of moving forwards and rebuilding a life, involves analysing what went wrong before, otherwise the same things will happen again. This is all part of that process.

I have already spoken to a number of different people, before publishing transcripts.  I have done all I need to do, to hide the identity of those involved.  

In the second part of this document of messages and calls, Penny further gains my trust, offering empty words of love and respect, platitudes.  This is not my interpretation, it is that of the charity I used to help me overcome what happened.  

Once again, you may feel differently.  I am not outing anyone, just going through words, with a different outlook and perspective on what actually happened during my last year in Southampton.

I have been over these words again and again, and I am still unsure, whether or not Penny was genuine or a charlatan.  She comes across very well.  There was a time I regarded her as a friend, but in the words of the charity who helped me, she was a bully, never listened to what you said and told you what you wanted to hear; make up your own mind!

​You are truly gifted my friend!

​Penny's words are in light green script, mine are in dark blue!
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28 April 2015

Concentration is a real problem. I haven't sat down and watched a film for many years. I just can't do it. On top of Bipolar it is a real pain for normality and relaxation..x

I think possibly you've been trying "to hard". I gave Darrell a list of things on how to meditate last night. Your main focus should be your breathing, and slowing it down. When thoughts come into your head, recognise, and then let them drift away. Try not to focus on them, it will become easier for you. 

6 May 2016

Omg!!! I have just read it! You truly understood what was being said! I could just hug you so tightly now. Did you google what 24 meant? I did! If not go check it out xxxxx Ps. I am and always will be here for you x

Hi Penny. I'll google it now. I always try and understand! x

It's as if it was written for you x This was the link I read x sacredscribesangelnumbers.blogspot.com

Really...I'll look now! x

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10 May 2016

Hey you! I hope that you had an amazing day yesterday, filled with love and laughter! xxxx

Hey sweet. I had a great time. Darrell is worrying me ATM with this Kate thing. I have no idea what to say. I really hope v sorts this ASAP...x

Luke don't worry about it, there is nothing you can do to resolve it for him. V is going to extend her probation period, I can only assume she is doing that; to gather evidence to not offer her an open ended contract. I watched her do it with 1 of the deputies at Winchester std shop. Darrell has told her everything that has gone on, as well as HR so, as long as he stands his ground, holds his nerve it will be resolved. You my sweet friend, should not worry, think, stress about it. You need to focus on you at the moment. xx

I read a friends hand last night. It was really upsetting. There was a family history of suicide. He was also resting with suicide himself. I told him he got very upset but said it was all true. He thanked me for telling him. I'll send you his message. I cried.

Bless you! But... You actually reached out and helped him. What an amazing gift to bestow on a friend xx What a truly heart felt beautiful message. xxxx

But having said that; it was well deserved. I think with the past few years, you lost touch of who you really were. So many people came into your life under false pretences. But thankfully, I know that the dark cloud they bestowed upon you, is slowly beginning to lift. Reflect upon last night, love and laughter embraced you. No drama, no ulterior motives from those that felt honoured to celebrate your birthday with you. I sense a feeling of love, warmth, sincerity and calmness. What a beautiful place to be within the heart of my friend. Enjoy, embrace and cherish the wonderful emotions those close to you, feel about you. x

It's hard to really describe the "pain" you feel when you read someone. You do find that people who "put on a show" only do it to hide their true feelings. But he was sent to you for a reason, the same as I was sent to you. Because you know, you feel, you truly understand; you do have a wonderful gift, use it wisely, freely, and with love and sincerity. It will never fail you, you will learn to understand it greater than you do now. It takes time, but it's worth all the effort; as it truly does change your life. X

Remember; always listen to your inner voice, it guides you, it protects you, it defines you from everyone else x

I'll try. Trouble is you continue to worry for fear of saying wrong thing. X

No, you will be guided. People are shocked at first; yes as they look at you as if your a stalker! But them reality steps in, they know you know. There are plenty of things I could of said about your Nan, but I was quite tactful, and said she had done my head in. She was relentless, used to getting her own way, quite spoilt to a degree. But I was guided to say, she had a strong opinion, strong willed strong character etc.. Get my drift? 

So much so; she even had an opinion on what I wore! Lol flat shoes weren't for her liking! 

You say whatever u have too. I know how dominant she was and she caused a lot of pain also, but it also made her contact you. By reading others it is strangely making me stronger if a bit emotional. I had never seen hands like this it was very scary, but I knew he was close to the end 

Trust in yourself Luke, you are truly gifted my friend. Have you posted a photo for Sally to read yet? I haven't said anything to her, as I wanted her to read you as I do. She is very good, but she usually charges, which doesn't sit well with me. I know you understand that more so after reading your friends palm last night. How can you charge for that? That's why I don't tell many people. I do have the ability to read Auras, which you have as well, but I suspect you've never been shown how to. So I am fortunate in the respect I can see who to approach and who to avoid. xx

I haven't yet. What do I have to do? X

The best way to do it when your learning, is too use a plain white or black back ground. Focus your eyes just past your hand. You know when you see heat rising off a road surface, it's hazy? That's what you need to latch on to. Don't look directly at your hand; just past the tips of your fingers. Once you latch on to it; you will start to see a colour, that's your Aura. The more you practise, the easier it becomes. Xx

Ok thank you. I'll try it. I'll let you know. Different colours mean different things I guess..x

Yes, once you've seen it you can't help but not see Auras. But it's a beautiful gift, you know who to stay away from xx Anyone with a dark grey Aura, avoid. White is protection from guides. Pink is love, red is a deep anger, blue is healing, unless it's very dark,( that's negativity) green is learning, yellow is money, orange is calmness xx

Ok ill try it later. Loads of writing first. Stuff to say again...lol..x

Forgot the most important one of all! Purple is spirituality, a person with a purple Aura is a gifted medium xx See; it's the need to speak the truth, the truth that's within you. The truth will heal you and set you free; remember truth is where the light is, the light that will always protect you. xx

So what exactly were these words about.  Genuine encouragement? A distraction from what was really going on at the time? Empty platitudes or a way of gaining her trust?  

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