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    Farewell Drinks at The Newcome!

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    The clock is ticking, it's not long before Darrell leaves for Australia. It's been great having him here for a while, despite the mess and destruction he leaves in his wake. Like me, Darrell is of course apprehensive about undertaking such a journey, despite doing it many times before. The flight to OZ never gets any easier and it does take a long time to recover. The last time I arrived in Australia, it took me a week to get over the jet lag.

    Darrell's Mother has been in Hospital in Perth, undergoing treatment for cancer. The medication she was on hasn't been working, so she was admitted to Hospital, where they have tried to introduce a more appropriate panacea. Her spell at St John of God Murdoch Hospital in the southern suburbs of Perth,  seems to have gone well, taking some of the worry away from Darrell's stressful journey!

    Last night Darrell came to the Newcome Arms with my Aunty Trisha and Christopher, who came down to stay in Portsmouth for the weekend, knowing it would be the last time he saw him for a while. Despite having to work, I did manage to have a few pints of Stella with everyone, wishing Darrell well on trip home. These are the memories I will cherish, while we are living apart.

    As we began to say our farewells to Darrell, I received some concerning news about my Mother in Hospital in Portsmouth. Dad rang me to say Mum's condition had worsened. She was suffering from kidney failure and would have to start dialysis as soon as possible. Mother consultant explained her kidneys were functioning at less than 10% of there normal activity and they needed to carry out more tests to establish the reasons why. After a further conversation Dad discovered that the CT scan carried out earlier last week, could have contributed to her failing organs; this was not what we wanted to hear. Like Dad, I am angry that my Mother wasn't warned of the risks of a scan being carried out and believe we should have known the facts before the procedure was carried out. Mum was also asked if she would liked to be resuscitated in the event of her death. Naturally Mum said she would prefer not to go on the way she was and who can blame her. No matter how ill she has become and how hard she has fought, she has constantly come up against a brick wall, over which lies more challenges and difficulties; today Mum is tired and needs a rest!

    With Mum currently in a precarious state, it would have been easier for me if Darrell was here to help me through this strenuous time. We all need a loved one or shoulder to cry on at times, but our situation isn't normal, so we have to walk a fine line and hopefully make the right choice for both our parents. The next week will be hard for everyone but I believe in time things will get better and all of us can finally live a normal life again, free from the stress of the last few years.
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    Frustration Turns To Anger - NHS Not Fit For Purpose!

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    Yesterday Darrell, my Aunty Trisha and I went to visit Mum in  Hospital. She has been there for quite a few weeks now and is currently recovering from an operation to remove part of her right leg, a week or so ago. Up to now her stay at The Queen Alexander Hospital in Portsmouth has been the usual mix of conjecture, frustration and indignation. As a family we have come to expect this scenario and do all we can to make sure Mum gets the best treatment she can.

    On arrival from Southampton General Hospital, after her amputation, she waited two hours for a bed to be allocated; the ward she was due to go on, no longer had any space available. temporarily she was put on a dementia ward and her recovery and rehabilitation suffered as a result. Mothers state of mind became muddled and confused, slowly she began to deteriorate.

    When we arrived to visit Mum, we were immediately told we couldn't see her as there were strict visiting times. After a brief conversation, it was agreed we could go in; Mum was in a private room, so there was no grounds to prevent people from sitting with her in the first place. Archaic policies preventing loved ones seeing their families, are outdated practices that have no place in a modern hospital. This angers me; hospital administrators need to buck their ideas up and move with the times, not implement rules that have no meaning or justification. Other hospital wards allow visitors at any time, why this particular one doesn't is rather beyond my understanding; perhaps one of my readers could enlighten me as to the reasons why!

    As soon as we saw Mum, we were all shocked at her disposition; had we not been allowed in we would have not known just how bad she was. Mum was being sick, her gown and sheets were soiled and and she seemed bewildered, dazed and upset. Mother was clearly in a distressed state, yet no one had done anything to help. This is an appalling way to treat people in the 21st century.

    After sitting down and talking we realised she was in a terrible condition mentally, saying she didn't want to 'be here,' anymore and we would be better off without her. She hadn't eaten or had fluids and couldn't keep anything down, including her medication that she still had sitting in her hand, unable to swallow the pills. A nurse came into the room, where she took Mum's blood sugar levels, which were out of control at 27.9; at this rate Mum could quickly go into a coma.

    I was finally able to give my Mother the medication she needed and did my best to wipe her face and hands, just to make her feel a little better. Her spectacles were covered in grime and dust and I cleaned them completely also, so she was able to see properly again. My Aunty, who is also a Nurse then started to ask questions, we all needed answers and the nurse promised to get a Doctor to talk to us as soon as she could. In the mean time we did our best to lift Mum's spirits.

    It wasn't too long before a consultant arrived and finally somebody took notice of Mum's predicament. She was promptly put on a drip and within half an hour of our arrival, taken for a CT scan, all the things that should have happened before we vocally voiced our opinions, shouting loud enough. If we hadn't, Mum could well be in the same position today. I find it inconceivable, that a woman of my Mothers age and infirmity is left to suffer in the way she has, what a terrible state of affairs. As my Father said, 'she would have been better staying at Hospital in Southampton, where the standards of care are far superior to those in Portsmouth.'

    It is beyond comprehension that patients are left to lay in their own vomit, given medication they can not take and not given the care they need. My Mother was covered in ulcers; she was essentially left in a bed, in the same posture, unable to move and most importantly not monitored. As someone spending long periods in bed, her position should have been changed regularly, every two hours; it wasn't! This resulted in open bed sores, painful and bleeding, unlike any my Father had ever seen; extremely dangerous given her condition. The long term effects of these open woulds, left unchecked, could have resulted in Mum's death, as any infection entered the bone.

    Finally I looked around the room she was in, I was struck by the pills I found on the floor, pills she should have taken and clearly hadn't. As human beings, we treat animals better than we treat our own and that is a shameful. We were lucky, my Aunty spoke up and made sure Mum got what she needed, for anyone else the outcome may have been very different. The Health Service may well be a much loved institution, but there is no point having a national treasure if it isn't functioning as it should. Something needs to change, so patients no longer suffer the indignities of illness without the supervision and support they need to heal successfully. I will most certainly be putting in a formal complaint, as anyone should, left in similar circumstances!
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    Photographs From Afar!

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    Celebrating a milestone, surrounded by family and friends; a special day to remember when everyone is gone. There are no guarantees we will be here forever, but will always look back, as if we are; photographs that tell a story, shared eagerly, from afar!
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    Keep It Real!

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    Smiling faces, laughing, successful and faultless; my life is far better than yours, how envious you must be!

    The truth is somewhat different, hiding behind a mask; disguising the reality of all our lives, reading between the lines!

    A photo may well tell a thousand words, fictional or false; only we have the power to keep it real; avoid regrets, circumvent remorse!
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    Celebrations!

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    We've had a few days of celebration at my Aunts house in Portsmouth this week. On Saturday Darrell and I celebrated our 23rd Anniversary, a milestone in anyone's  book, especially in this day and age.

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    We are lucky enough to be in the same country this year, before Darrell leaves for Australia next Wednesday. Events were kept rather low key, with our long term friend Chris arriving to spend a few days with us. The days of massive parties are well and truly over; spending quality time with friends and family is most certainly the way forward for us at least. I spent the entire day working at the supermarket and the Newcome Arms on a busy day, so Darrell and Chris met me there later in the evening, sharing a beer or two and meeting those who work and use this traditional Portsmouth pub!
    Yesterday my little Cousin Cain celebrated his 1st Birthday; on the same evening my Aunty Trisha threw a party for her 59th Birthday, inviting family and friends over for a packed evening of music, chat, dancing and food. This was the first time Darrell was able to meet everyone I have grown close to; he seemed to enjoy time spent talking with everyone who came and used the party as a platform to make his final farewells, before he leaves next week.

    I want to end this entry today by saying a word or two about family. When I look back three years ago, when I started blogging, I had no contact with family at all. My relationship with those closest had broken down for a number of reasons and I was very much making my own way in life, with my partner Darrell. We both believed we would not have any communication with my parents again and lived in relative solitude, at least where our kinfolk were concerned.

    Of course as we know now, events in our life transpired to change our whole outlook on the World, including our relationship with parents and others in our extended network. Time abroad living in Spain taught me much about relationships. I was drawn back to my parents because of adverse times and illness, finally realising just how important they were.

    When Darrell and I took the decision to move abroad, we mistakenly believed running away from our rather war torn and battered life was the only option, finally forgetting the difficulties of the past. As we both know now, this was not an answer, this was just a sticking plaster masking deeper problems, that would likely resurface in the future. Spain did at least offer us both the opportunity to think and reflect about our chosen path and I rapidly came to the conclusion that Britain was my home and I wanted to be back there, with the people that mattered.

    I have always been close to my Aunty Trisha, even when we had little or no contact; we are very similar people, made from the same mould. She was a wild child, who found it difficult to conform to 'normal' life, just as I have, preferring to spend my time, enjoying life to the max. Trisha was the first person I asked for help when I realised I had to get out of Spain and she was happy to do what she could, offering me a place to live, while Darrell and I dealt with issues of family, illness and confronting the bullies in our midst. Without my Aunts help and support my life would probably be in a far worse state than it is currently.

    As I rebuild my life here in the UK living with family, while Darrell embarks on his own personal journey to care for his ailing Mother, I am content staying with the one member of my family who really understands me. My life hasn't been a bed of roses, with everything handed to me on a plate; I have had to graft for what little I have left, just like my wayward Aunt. This is what makes us close, this is what makes us understand each other and this is what pushes us forward in life.

    Whatever has happened in your life, however bad it was, don't push away the very people who can and will help you. Without close family bonds, we loose the ability to connect with our past, present and future, in a way that reflects our true self. Families are important because they offer an insight into our forebears that would otherwise exist without meaning; a life without meaning, is no life at all!
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