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    Sleep; rather lack of it!

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    I find myself with a little time on my hands today; 'best laid plans of mice and men,' to coin a phrase. No bad thing in my book, as last night was another sleepless one, for me at least. The hot weather currently descending across southern Europe; hotter, so much hotter than last year; is causing me to toss and turn all night and not in a good way. Just when you think it can't get any more humid, it does. As a person who never really liked the heat, I personally think I am adapting well, though others may disagree. There is 'something about the night' about me, refusing to leave the house, during more sunnier moments, which in Spain, is most of the time, but as one enters ones second summer living on the Costa Blanca, I am coping far better than I did last year; except at night!

    Myself and Darrell tend to sleep in separate beds at the moment; a lack of sleep brought about by the heat of the night compounded by the snores of ones husband is not an option I have as yet contemplated. Darrell's snoring has been a great source of angst over the years. If Darrell lays flat on his back, the noise is unbearable. I have learned to push him on to his right side, his face against the wall; in this repose rarely a snore can be heard. One has to sleep with ones elbow extended to his side of the bed; laying flat becomes an impossibility, keeping Darrell on his side, silent, not a peep. In the UK, I would also wear ear plugs, in Spain, finding a pair, is tantamount to wasting yet another two hours of ones life, like the queue in the bank; in Spain, I just cope. The extended elbow also helps with Darrell's sleep apnoea. I am a very light sleeper; as I hear a pin drop, I can detect when Darrell stops breathing. A short sharp nudge in the back, brings him back to life. Of course sleeping separately, I just cross my fingers and hope for the best!

    Myself and Darrell have very different sleeping patterns you wont be surprised to learn. We are opposites in everything we do, sleep being no exception. As an insomniac, I have to sleep in a darkened room, with no light extending through the window. Shutters down, curtains drawn to prevent a single ray of light hitting the bedroom wall. Silence is a must; doors and windows closed, to shut out any possibility of waking; normally no bad thing, but during these humid nights, making it practically impossible for me, let alone Darrell to sleep. Dozing in a sweat box, with only an old rusty fan to keep one company, blaring in ones face for the duration, isn't conducive to a good nights sleep, especially when the fans front fascia, protecting fingers and toes from the blades, keeps falling off, crashing on the marble floor twenty or so times a night.

    So why not open the window or balcony door? I hear you ask! That's a simple one to answer; the Spanish wildlife! In Britain you are awoken gently by the dawn chorus; birds tweeting in the day; in fact the alarm on my phone, has a variety of British birds squawking ever louder. A relaxing, non stressful introduction to the day ahead! In Spain the crickets noisily whistle all night and day. It was a sound I used to love when I holidayed on the med in the past, an annoying tone akin to white noise now. An open window or door risks the intrusion of a cricket, that can never be found. The screeching unmistakable, their whereabouts impossible to determine. Keeping these little wonders of nature out of the house is a must!

    Not only do we suffer the ravages of crickets, but we have a number of other obstacles to contend with; a ravenous mosquito population, the clicking cockroaches, the lizards, spiders as big as your hand, Palm beetles and drunken holiday makers returning from the bars; living in Spain, on the edge of a crevasse, picturesque or not, does have its downsides. All entry points for the roaches are now blocked, the windows covered in fly screens; so far all working well and I have not yet seen another threatening menace greeting me on the bedroom floor.

    I have been an insomniac for as long as I can remember, up until I came to Spain, I took a number of sleeping pills, just to feel somnolent, let alone narcoleptic. Needless to say, like so may things in my life, they eventually stopped working and just made my lack of sleep worse. Taking four hours to eventually tire each night is not normal; living in Spain, has just made me more tired than ever. Laying on a bed worrying, thinking and procrastinating about my new life; fretting about not being able to sleep, making me agonize ever more; a chink of light through the curtain, unruly wildlife and a husband who remains incompatible in the bedroom, in the sleeping sense, just makes for many more wakeful, restless hours.

    There is an upside to all this; I am not moaning for the sake of it; I enjoy my sleepless nights somewhat; a little less than I did, but it is my favourite time, the period when I do and think the most. In creative terms, insomnia produces great expression of thought; my overactive mind, working ever harder to record my dreams and recollections from the day. I have always worked best in the dark, inspiration built from the light of the moon. Although I sleep little, I rest enough to recharge and reset, what more can I ask for. Too much sleep is bad for the soul!
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    Fare thee well Kiefer!

    So today, it was farewell to another friend, Kiefer, who has been staying with us in Gran Alacant. In the UK, Kiefer used to turn up on our doorstep at all hours. In all but name, him and his brother are like family to us. Despite having a go, telling him not to do it again, we adored him really. In Spain Kief was on his best behaviour; it was a pleasure having him stay here; I am going to miss having him about, as I know Darrell will.

    We only have a few slots left for summer visitors now, so if you wish to come over, please message me. We would be delighted to have you stay with us. 

    There are times I miss everyone from home terribly, so seeing friends, like Kiefer, is a great healer. It is certainly allowing us to finally settle down, happy where we live!
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    Friends!

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    Nearly ready to go at LoungeD ​this Saturday. It was great to see friends from Gran Alacant pop in to wish us all luck; Mike and Tim from Zest were the first. We all look forward to welcoming you all soon!
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    I Have A Lot To Say!

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    People often say to me, how do you find things to write about, well I have a lot to say to be brutally honest.  When I first started to write my first blog in April 2015, it was the start of a journey, that I never believed would end up here, where I am today, sitting on my sofa, blogging in Spain. Back in April, I had no idea what was happening to myself and my partner. Writing a blog was about taking away the boredom, whilst off work, because of a period of sickness. Of course as I know now, that illness was brought about because of the charity I worked for, so within a few short months after discovering the truth, my writing exploded. A small blog turned into a mission, writing about the horrors of corporate bullying, as I tried to come to terms with what had happened to me.

    I have written nearly every day, since that time. My feelings were changing on an almost daily basis. In my view, blogging, records raw emotion; my emotions at that time, were often confused and muddled, which comes across  in the entries I wrote. Today I dislike looking back at this phase and the entries I produced; I cringe at the mixed messages, bad grammar and my state of mind. Yes, I had a lot to say, but often said too much too quickly. I was reluctant to change or edit any of the blogs I wrote back then and still am. It records a very difficult time in my life; had I not written in the way I did, I would not remember those days, in the way I should; one should always learn from what one writes!

    By January 2016 we were living in Spain; I had more to say than ever. My life experiences, were making me even more determined to put words on paper. I had left a life full of turmoil, hoping to live a more stress free existence and never expected to carry on blogging in the same way. There was only so much I could say about living quietly in Spain, only so much I could say about the intense sun and Spanish lifestyle; I expected my writing to come to an abrupt end. The reality of my situation, was very different and my words became more important than ever.

    The anger against the charity, I worked for,  has never subsided; if anything it has got worse, as they deny, hide and try and cover up what they were responsible for. The more they have tried to pass the buck, the more I have dug and campaigned against them. As my state of mind has improved, my determination and aggravation has also. This gave me fresh impetuous; my grammar improved, my writing style changed; I had a new sense of purpose, unrelenting in my desire to bring Oxfam to account for their actions against me and others in the charity, who were victims of bullying.

    I write about my trials and tribulations back home, often in this blog, not to the extent I did in the UK, but enough to keep the injustices suffered at the time, alive; after all, it is far more important to me today; it was responsible for us moving to Gran Alacant. Spanish Views is predominantly about myself and Darrell's new life in Spain; happy and positive times; well very nearly. Like everything in life, our time living here has not been plain sailing. Many of the issues we had to deal with in Britain, have resurfaced in Spain. We are now far more aware of what transpired in our life, consequently able to pin point and recognise when it happens again. Sadly after what we have experienced, we will continue to relive these experiences in real time, as well as in the past. My writing will continue to reflect the difficulties in our life then and record and document them now.

    Writing is my passion; it looks like I am going to be blogging for the duration; I always seem to have something to say. My life hasn't got any easier, moving to Spain, in fact the opposite is true. Life isn't easy; being forced to leaves ones country of origin and move abroad, because of circumstances has given me a life time of material to collate. You'll certainly be hearing from me a lot in the future!

    Today's entry is for Mark, who emailed me yesterday; his email titled: 'You have a lot to say!' I hope this clarifies all the points you raised. Please keep the messages coming; I enjoy reading all your correspondence!
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    LoungeD

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    Busy day yesterday sorting out the finishing touches for LoungeD; it's more or less ready to go, after the pumps were finally made operational. With only a few more things to complete we should be opening very soon!
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