I haven’t written in ages, and to be honest it’s probably because life has been okay.. I’ve kept busy, I’ve been doing bits and have felt alright.
Tonight, I am not alright… I have let myself get into a big old hole where life just feels shit.
When I feel like this, all I can think constantly in my head, is what is my reason for being on this earth? I have no children and no boyfriend/husband.. what is my point of being here?
By all means, I don’t want the sympathy from anyone.. that is not what I am asking for in the slightest.
I just feel so down and so sad about everything. I’m sure tomorrow I will delete this blog cause I will instantly regret opening up and sharing my feelings… but right now to distract myself I need to write.
So here it is… yuck.
Let me introduce you to Claire, a lady I have known for over ten years. This brave young girl has started a blog, documenting and detailing her own personal mental health journey, as she deals with depression. I came across a link for her web page on facebook and immediately asked if she wouldn't mind featuring on my blog from time to time. She very kindly agreed and I am proud to welcome Claire to the wonderful world of blogging.
I have written much about depression and the spectre of mental health and understand just what it is like to deal with these issues on a daily basis. Many of my readers at 'Roaming Brit' have contacted me about my stories dealing with depression and I know Claire's writing will also be of great help to them as they face their own challenges and difficulties everyday. Once again a big thank you to Claire!
Well hello there… if you’re reading this you’ve obviously clicked on the link!
Where do I even begin? So I’ll assume you all know me… I’m Claire… I got diagnosed with depression around 10 years ago, the anxiety I assume comes hand in hand.
I’ve been having private counselling now for around 6 months, it’s been absolutely brilliant. I would recommend it to anyone that can afford it.
One of the most recent sessions was my counsellor saying I should start a blog, to tell my story… talk about my week and the struggles I have overcome. Not only that, but mainly to help others. I have learned so much along my journey and would love to teach some of it to others. If I can just help one person, I will be happy.
So here I am… today’s blog will be short and sweet, a little snippet some may say! I’ll try and post weekly, almost a “week in the life of Claire”.
So today, I woke up feeling RUBBISH. I felt really down in the dumps and miserable… one of those moods you can’t snap out of. I messaged my mum (She will come up a lot in these!) And my sister in law to see if I could tag along to Bournemouth with them.
I got a reply from both, of course, more than welcome but it will be very fleeting… won’t it be a waste of time?
Queue that little man that sits on my shoulder… they don’t want you there Claire! I fought that little man, told him to piss off and jumped in my car. I had the loveliest day with my amazing family.
Back in the day, that little voice would have consumed me and I would have stayed at home feeling sorry for myself all day.
My life mantra – little steps.
So this was longer than I thought, sorry if you’re bored out of your mind, if you got this far congratulations and thank you!
Anyone reading this, if you feel you need to talk to anyone, need advise, to chat, cry… you name it… I’m here.
I’m still working on the whole speaking on the phone thing so bear with me on that one, but always at the end of a text/Facebook message/Instagram message bla bla you get it.
Again, thank you… until next week!