Phone Call!

These kind of blogs do work.  I have been writing about my experiences, at the hand of Sociopaths for nearly two years now; the response has been more than I could have ever expected.  In reality, I thought I was alone, suffering at the hands of some terrible individuals; nothing could have been further from the truth.  Sociopaths exist in every walk of life; charming and agreeable, on the surface, wonderful people to know.  This is why, when the truth finally comes out, their victims find it very hard to cope with.  In many cases they try and take their own lives.  The revelations can be that harmful.  

In my case, I never fully understood or knew the extent to which these people infiltrated my life.  I was told of the damage it would cause, if I became aware of the full truth.  At present I ignore the information I have, as I try and rebuild my life.  I do want to know, exactly what happened eventually, but I understand, how difficult it is at the moment. I have still not fully recovered from the horrendous disclosures, confirmed to us recently. Time is a great healer. As I make a last attempt to close this awful chapter in my life, I will have to face up to some utterances that I may not wish to hear.  With closure comes the truth, so everything must be brought out in the open.

I understand the pain this person is going through, because I still relive it every day, myself. Every night I close my eyes, I see the faces of those who caused and are still causing so much pain to others. I am obviously no longer scared.  Let them do their worst;  my feelings are complete revulsion and anger, that a charity would allow its employees and volunteers cope with all the violations and indignities that are a part of sociopathic behaviour.  These are terrible people, who should be brought to justice, but it seems the reputation of this organisation is more important than life itself.  What a terrible World we live in, that a group of Managers and Trustees would allow this inexcusable behaviour to continue.

My heart does go out to you.  Please continue to read my other blogs, where you will also find a list of helplines and groups who can help.  You can of course ring me anytime you wish, if that helps.

It is very difficult living with the fact, you were the victim of a Sociopath.  There is very little information on the subject and even fewer qualified people you can speak to, but there are a few out there.  Please be careful, who you choose to talk with, because it is also a sad fact, that Sociopaths will infiltrate these helplines and groups, to cause even more harm to victims.  

It hasn't ended for me, not by a longshot, but I can, at least, today, give advice to others experiencing what I and many more of my colleagues did.  You will get stronger, as time progresses.  Until then, take as long as you need, to get well again and recover, at least a small part of the person you once were. ALWAYS REMEMBER, YOU ARE NOT GUILTY OR RESPONSIBLE. WHAT YOU BELIEVE TO BE HAPPENING, IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING.  NEVER DOUBT YOURSELF!