I Have A Lot To Say!

People often say to me, how do you find things to write about, well I have a lot to say to be brutally honest.  When I first started to write my first blog in April 2015, it was the start of a journey, that I never believed would end up here, where I am today, sitting on my sofa, blogging in Spain. Back in April, I had no idea what was happening to myself and my partner. Writing a blog was about taking away the boredom, whilst off work, because of a period of sickness. Of course as I know now, that illness was brought about because of the charity I worked for, so within a few short months after discovering the truth, my writing exploded. A small blog turned into a mission, writing about the horrors of corporate bullying, as I tried to come to terms with what had happened to me.

I have written nearly every day, since that time. My feelings were changing on an almost daily basis. In my view, blogging, records raw emotion; my emotions at that time, were often confused and muddled, which comes across  in the entries I wrote. Today I dislike looking back at this phase and the entries I produced; I cringe at the mixed messages, bad grammar and my state of mind. Yes, I had a lot to say, but often said too much too quickly. I was reluctant to change or edit any of the blogs I wrote back then and still am. It records a very difficult time in my life; had I not written in the way I did, I would not remember those days, in the way I should; one should always learn from what one writes!

By January 2016 we were living in Spain; I had more to say than ever. My life experiences, were making me even more determined to put words on paper. I had left a life full of turmoil, hoping to live a more stress free existence and never expected to carry on blogging in the same way. There was only so much I could say about living quietly in Spain, only so much I could say about the intense sun and Spanish lifestyle; I expected my writing to come to an abrupt end. The reality of my situation, was very different and my words became more important than ever.

The anger against the charity, I worked for,  has never subsided; if anything it has got worse, as they deny, hide and try and cover up what they were responsible for. The more they have tried to pass the buck, the more I have dug and campaigned against them. As my state of mind has improved, my determination and aggravation has also. This gave me fresh impetuous; my grammar improved, my writing style changed; I had a new sense of purpose, unrelenting in my desire to bring Oxfam to account for their actions against me and others in the charity, who were victims of bullying.

I write about my trials and tribulations back home, often in this blog, not to the extent I did in the UK, but enough to keep the injustices suffered at the time, alive; after all, it is far more important to me today; it was responsible for us moving to Gran Alacant. Spanish Views is predominantly about myself and Darrell's new life in Spain; happy and positive times; well very nearly. Like everything in life, our time living here has not been plain sailing. Many of the issues we had to deal with in Britain, have resurfaced in Spain. We are now far more aware of what transpired in our life, consequently able to pin point and recognise when it happens again. Sadly after what we have experienced, we will continue to relive these experiences in real time, as well as in the past. My writing will continue to reflect the difficulties in our life then and record and document them now.

Writing is my passion; it looks like I am going to be blogging for the duration; I always seem to have something to say. My life hasn't got any easier, moving to Spain, in fact the opposite is true. Life isn't easy; being forced to leaves ones country of origin and move abroad, because of circumstances has given me a life time of material to collate. You'll certainly be hearing from me a lot in the future!

Today's entry is for Mark, who emailed me yesterday; his email titled: 'You have a lot to say!' I hope this clarifies all the points you raised. Please keep the messages coming; I enjoy reading all your correspondence!

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