Forever Enduring Cycles was my second blog, written between November 2015 and January 2016. It documents my recovery from a Bipolar Relapse and the final few months living in Britain, before our departure for Spain. They were difficult times for me and I have only now started to reread my blog entries from this time. Looking back at a period I would rather forget is hard; as I read through the entries, I hope to assess their validity and connect the words, with my life today.
While writing this introduction, many memories have come flooding back, I am mindful of what I was going through towards the end of 2015. The writing is at times rambling; raw, written from the heart, which can reflect negatively. The honest thing for me to state now, is the severe pressure and strain I was under, exacerbated by circumstances, recovery and realisation; a frightening existence, one I never thought I would see the end of. Not only was I dealing with a breakdown, I was also trying to survive bullying in the work place, at Oxfam and the pain of leaving the Country I loved, moving to Spain. My words reflect my feelings, from an altogether different time.
In this section of my blog, 'Spanish Views' I aim to relive those moments, reproducing 'Forever Enduring Cycles' here for a new readership to enjoy. The words will be the same, untouched, the dates will mirror those when they were written, but I will add any footnotes, I consider relevant today. 'Forever Enduring Cycles' the original blog will remain published, but will also sit quite happily in this, its own section of 'Spanish Views,' as a reminder of those frantic few months, before we left for our new life in Spain!
46 year old Expat, writer and columnist, living and working in Gran Alacant on the Costa Blanca.