13 November 2015
Just had a nice long bath. Feeling relaxed, positive and after the last few days, accomplished, I've had a lot of writing to do, but not in the 'blog' sense of the word, which has taken a back seat somewhat. To be honest with you, the amount of studying, I have done over the last eight months, has lead me to think, I should take it up for a living. Jason has given me loads to do as well. Jason hates reading and writing at the best of times, so if it helps him, that's fine. His mind has been else where anyway.
I have also done a lot of talking, not to the usual group of people, but to those I should have engaged with long ago. It is amazing, when you start to talk to honest, experienced and empathetic people, who understand you more than yourself, just how much your thoughts and judgements have been clouded for so long. Sometimes it can take a long time to evaluate and understand others motives, but when you finally realise, there is no stopping you. When situations, involving yourself and those you love, become part of the harsh reality of life, you will not stop until justice is done.
I have been doing some research for a guide I am writing to do with Bipolar and employment. It is one of those subjects that most people find difficult to talk about, but it is important, when you consider just how many people suffer with Bipolar. Mental Health seems to be a taboo subject for most, which is why there needs to be more understanding and training on the subject, especially when The Equality act of 2010, sets out details for compliance in law.
For those of you who suffer with Bipolar and are experiencing difficulties at work, read the above document, it will help you and your employers deal with the subject in the correct way. I am, as I say in the process of writing my own views on the subject and will publish those as soon as I have completed the research.
Claire and lee
positivity - friday 13 november 2015
Awoke this morning feeling as positive as ever. Popped out this morning was Jason. It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining and despite the fact it's Friday 13th today, it made no difference.
Currently I am sat here watching 'The Hunger Games' with Jason and Chris, which keeps distracting me from writing. It's a great film by the way. It could even describe the story of my life at present,
Peace and love, always
Reflections 28 October 2017
The saga with Oxfam continues; even at this late stage the lack of conversation and dialogue is clear. For seven months they had ignored my plight and that of others, refusing to acknowledge there was any problem in the region we worked for. The only way I was able to get the information I needed, was through my own research, talking to various organisations and concentrating my energies on fighting the charity I once held in high regard, not because of them, but because of the person they were protecting. As I know now, the reality was, Oxfam were complicit in all the wrong doing at the time, bullying, lies and sociopathic behaviour. An organisation that had no morals left, hiding the truth from its employees and defending some wicked, wicked people!
With everything that was going on at the time, the people in my life, like Claire and Lee, were the support network I needed, without them, I am not sure whether I would have got through those months fully in tact. I had people in my life 24/7, there was never a moments peace; at the time I found that very difficult to cope with, but without that level of encouragement and friendship from others, circumstances would have been far worse. I would like to thank all those who were there for me at that time!
It's strange, I am sat here this morning, after a busy shift at LoungeD last night, living in Spain, happier than I have ever been. Myself and my partner are both working, earning a wage at the most difficult part of the year. Jobs in the winter are few and far between, so I don't think I've done too badly, since arriving in Spain. The reason I mention this today, is because of the complete turn around in our fortunes as a couple. This blog entry mentions the friends we had around us, which were many; people I miss everyday. Moving to Spain was traumatic, for reasons I have mentioned many times before. The most difficult aspect of our decision to emigrate, was leaving friends behind. Littered throughout all my blogs, there are references to many people I have had the pleasure of knowing and I do miss all of them. We do of course have many friends in Gran Alacant, but these bonds were not formed out of adversity, unlike those relationships formed during our last year in the UK.
It's Saturday afternoon now and I am laying on the sofa, writing, watching Coronation Street, reflecting over my life, two years ago. I have been through hell and back but finally I can sit, read my old blogs from very different times, remember what happened, finally accept where I am and continue to fight the injustices that will forever lay within me. They are never going away, not until those responsible are brought to justice; until then, I will just keep writing!
46 year old Expat, writer and columnist, living and working in Gran Alacant on the Costa Blanca.