Am I really the most anxious gay in the World?

I try to do things to ease my anxiety, just to take the edge off the way I'm feeling. Escaping to the city, is one of those rare occasions, that helps me to relax. This huge metropolis, full of tall, imposing buildings, is actually a great place to unwind. The streets are almost always empty, and unlike London, I don't feel stressed walking around. Perth may well be the capital city of Western Australia, but it is actually one of the most isolated cities in the World. Consequently, it has a village vibe — small and intimate in nature and generally devoid of people, and the inevitable anti-social behaviour that tends to follow. After two years away from the UK, it almost, yes, almost, feels like home!

In this week's vlog, I'm talking about anxiety, and how it affects my life on a daily basis. From the physical to the mental symptoms, the feelings are very real, even if they are mostly benign in nature. I have suffered from this debilitating condition for as long as I can remember. I must stress, that this video is not about solutions to anxiety, because I really don't have any. Furthermore, I am only now learning about the science behind it, so I don't expect a quick fix anytime soon.

What this vlog aims to do, is show others that you aren't alone, there are people, like me, out there, who also suffer from anxious feelings. Maybe you can relate to some of the difficulties I have shared, or maybe you can offer me solutions and answers for why I feel the way I do.

Problem sharing is a great way to deal with often complex health issues, that have no easy cure. Just because I don't show outward physical signs of illness, it doesn't mean there isn't anything bubbling under the surface. It is true to say, I am not suffering from a painful life limiting condition, or a disease that I have to physically manage on a daily basis. I am, however, learning to cope with an unseen, hidden disorder, that manifests in many different ways. 

​Defining how I feel is often hard, I can't always describe my state of mind, and that in itself causes concern. With self-help, care, and a blossoming ability to seek out answers, I hope to begin the process of recovering sufficiently, to lead a happy, normal life. This is of course a learning curve. The anxiety I feel changes daily and until I understand the processes at work, that make me who I am, I will continue to muddle through as best I can… What else can I do?

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